Karma Police

I do believe that when a person does somebody harm, the deed will return to him/her tenfold.  The person may think that he/she got away with it, but what goes around comes around.  So, don’t be so complacent to think that everything is all rainbows & butterflies from now on, for Karma is just waiting for you with her baseball bat, ready to whack your brains out. Have a nice day!

How I Wish…

Sometimes, when you really, really hate a person, you just wish they were never born,  or hoped that you never knew that person at all. I really wish that in some stroke of luck my future will revert and I will just end up not knowing this person.  Because try as I may to forget that she exists, she is like a leech that’s been sucking up my energy day after day after day…  I’m so tired of this bitching feeling… I’m so tired of hating but I can’t help it.  This nudging feeling called hatred gives me a heavy heart.  I was not like this before. I was not like this when this shit of a person is still unknown to me.  She created a crater in my emotion that I just can’t seem to fill in. My life was far better off before this person entered it, and she entered it without my permission.  She just wrecked havoc and chaos. Sometimes I question myself, why are there people like her, ruining other people’s lives… God I really hate this bitch!  I really wish she was never born at all…  FUB! I hope you will feel the pain that I felt ten fold! God, I just wish to erase this person in my memory for the mere thought of her makes me want to puke my guts out… I abhor her existence…

このような浮気者です

このような浮気者です! 私はずっとあなたのこと嫌い. 私はあなたにひどい死に方を希望！

Gone for Good

The ghoul that has been hunting me these past few months had finally disappeared. It’s as if it was exorcised and banished to hell.  What a relief this has been… Now, I can sleep peacefully at night without any worries whatsoever that this wretched specter will turn my dream to a nightmare…

Although sometimes, I can still sense this “ghoul’s” presence,  but I couldn’t care less.  I’m not bothered with it anymore…  I really don’t care if it still exist somewhere in the realms of Gehenna as long as it steers clear off my life.

 

Killing Me, Killing You -By SENTENCED

Baby, have you seen, there is a snake in our paradise
A serpent that’s wriggling between us
and freezing our feelings to ice

And with each drop of blood we bleed because of this
something so precious dies and it feels it really is…

Killing Me Killing You
Killing all we have
As our loves wither away

Burning Me Burning You
Burning us to ash
Drowning us in a sea of flames

Darling, do you feel, there is a storm coming our way
The burning light between us is already starting to fade

The fire in our hearts were smothered by the rain
And the crimson flame of passion turned into something grey

And with each drop of blood our shattered hearts ever bleed
something so precious dies and is lost eternally

Killing Me Killing You
Killing all we have
As our loves wither away

Burning Me Burning You
Burning us to ash
Drowning us in a sea of flames

Each teardrop from your eyes
Makes something inside me die
Each of these days that draws us apart
Takes a piece from my
Takes a piece from my heart

Kill me kill me kill me again with your love
and chase the storm away
Bring me bring me bring me the end with your love
and haunt the demons away

Killing Me Killing You

Killing Me Killing You
Killing all we have
as our loves wither away

Burning Me Burning You
Burning us to ash
drowning us in a sea of flames

Kill me kill me kill me again with your love
and chase the snake away
Bring me bring me bring me the end with your love
and haunt the serpent away

The Koi Fish & the Frog

The Koi Fish said to the Frog, “I’m glad you’ve found another pond to swim on”. The Frog replied “Yes, isn’t it nice?” The Koi Fish answered “Yes, it is, but just stay there. Don’t come back to my pond, you’re not welcome here anymore. You don’t belong here.”  Then the Koi swam away, leaving the Frog bemused…

Dilemma=BS

There will be a time in your life wherein a certain dilemma would put you into frenzy.  You would succumb to its endless pit and be trapped there, unless you do something about it.  Instead of brooding into the negativity of things, try to find the positive aspects out of it; try to learn something from it.  Try to utilize it to your own gain. It would seem impossible at first, but as time passes by, you’ll learn to live with it. Then you’ll look back and realize how petty it is.

Everything happens for a reason. At least that’s what I want to think. What happened had happened and you can’t do anything to change it. Accepting it is the only viable thing to do. Just go with the flow, as the saying goes…

I try to see my dilemma as a speck of dirt in my eye.  One wash of clean water and it’s gone. It is so miniscule it’s not worthy of my time.  (And yet I’m writing this, oh crap!  )

People “r” People

In our lives we encounter different people, people you can’t live without, people you just can’t stand (the mere sight of them makes you want to puke your guts out), each of them having diverse effect on us, some negative, some positive…. These people are all significant in their own little way as they mold us into who we are.  They are a part of us whether we like it or not. They are the dents on our souls, the mucks on our shoes.

In my whole life I’ve encountered several people that I really detest, people who did me wrong, people that I wished I never knew at all. But I try not to be affected by them because it’s just too pointless…  Why should I, they are just specks of dust.

Instead of sulking and being annoyed, I treat them as my challenge, these nemeses of mine…  They, who want to bring me down, are the same people who’ll put me on the top. Because of them, I became a better person. So I thank thee suckers, my middle finger to you! 

Not a Good Year

This year has not been good year for me. That’s my assessment anyway. The only good thing that happened to me this year is the birth of my daughter, Raven Lee; the rest are simply forgettable. I don’t believe in Feng Shui, but I think the Year of the Ox isn’t for me. I wish it’s 2010 already.

Why I don’t like this year: I bled twice during my pregnancy. The second one – which happened on the night of my birthday – sent me to Makati Med where I spent the next two months in total bed rest. It was the longest, most depressing two months of my life. After that, another dilemma that sent me once again to depression (too personal to post here).

Then my sister was diagnosed to have cysts the size of an adult’s fist in her ovaries. She underwent surgery last week and is still in pain up to now. As if that’s not enough, my mom was diagnosed to have cysts in her thyroid. She’ll undergo biopsy tomorrow, the results to be out next week.  I just hope she’s okay, and that everything will be okay. My mind is a mess right now, but I have to stay strong for my baby, my husband and family. This too shall pass, as the old saying goes…

I hope 2010 will be different.